Friday, February 22, 2008

Clearing...

A Flower growing in the river...

My blog's getting cloudy... from all the rants and sad incidents... Hahaha...

When Rachel said I was wallowing in self pity... I thought for quite awhile...

Maybe I am...

Maybe I am not...

Many will definitely not agree to the way I'm doing things...

Everything happens for a reason...

Hahaha...

Hmm... Where do I start...

Yes I do admit I used to wallow in self pity when See Yueh left me and such... Eventually I did become an optimistic person and such... Using the past as a stepping stone to become stronger in a good way or a bad way... Afterall... Your past is what you are now... I think those who hurt others would know what I mean... =) They were hurt once too, so in turn they hurt others in the same way instead of not following in their shadow...

Right now I dare to admit that im not wallowing in self pity...

Its that I think alot... I think alot and at least I'm taking actions and the initiative to make my life better... And of cos, others... =) Whereas I'm not only thinking and hanging there... And not doing anything to get stronger =)

I'm not comforting myself that I'm being used by ppl or being sacrificed or betrayed... I give thanks that they are even doing that... Its a chance for me to be pushed onto the ground and to stand up stronger than I was yesterday ^^

Months back... I had a post... Abt everything has been going so smoothly for weeks... Its something I'm not used to... My life has not been smooth for the past 18 years... its unusual to get such peace...

Its not time yet... Not time yet to get such peace...

I'm not that strong yet to be able to get the opportunity to enjoy such peace...

I'll be stopping here... Blog some other times... =)

If you're not the one
Then why does my soul feel glad today
If you're not the one
Then why does my hand fit yours this way

CRUCIFIED at 7:40 AM

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Friday, February 22, 2008