Saturday, December 15, 2007

To the hands that rock the cradle...

Its been a very very long time since i blogged...

Too many drafts...

So much time...

Everything you said...

Has been running thru my head...

Its time I give up the old and the bad...

And start anew...


Past few weeks was pretty smooth somehow... I'm afraid something bad would crop out soon... As Usual...

Hahaha...

What can i do? But to pray every night b4 I hit my pillow...

Shopped with sis Amelia for her prom night a month ago... shoes... purse... earrings... ring... and even brought her to Ken to do her hair... ^^

Started at Cafe Cartel @ PS, 3 weeks ago... Met many nice peeps there... Hahaha... Everything's there going smoothly... Too smoothly for me... Perhaps im changing somehow...

Optimistic... That's what im learning to be and slowly reverting to... =) Hahaha... I'm letting go of that unhappy and ugly incident... It's not good to hold those sad and angry memories in... See Yueh... Bye... Casio... Bye... Quiksilver... Bye... Its not just a memory... It was a part of me... I'm slowly learning... Hahaha...

A month back... While in that pub... Words of Wisdom... yea... That guy Bob... If you dun love yourself... What rights have you to love others?... Reflecting upon it... Its true... true...

If you dun forgive yourself.... how can u forgive others?... And so it goes on...

Visiting my dad every sunday... Bringing in flowers... For him... For my aunt... For a friend's dad... spending close to an hour there... talking to my dad... thou its wierd talking to pictures but... yea... He will hear me and bless me somehow...

I'm not stupid to not let go of those ppl... I'm just faithful... or both maybe XD...

Many old friends suddenly came popping back into my life... Bringing back with them... Happy and Unhappy memories... Reminds me of how i was such a loser in sec sch... I'm changing... God is here wif me I guess...

Another thing that is happening would be abt Sis Amelia... The reason im in Cartel is that I felt the need to guide her and protect her there... Shes getting herself into so much problems... I already tried my best... I can foresee... That many problems for her are arising... Especially wif the higher-ups in Cartel... It's another See Yueh I see in Amelia... It breaks my heart... But... Afterall its her life to lead... Well (^^,)...

Well... Everybody's changing... Slowly but surely... I can't be sociable overnight like I want to... But hell yea... I want to do my best... Hahaha....

It's a long long journey...

And im coming back home...

To you...




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