Tuesday, December 25, 2007

I'm growing into it... Plz help me to see forever...

Well... I've been reflecting back about the past 5 months...

Am I ready to start loving again? Do I have the rights to start loving another?

Ok... Lets start with the evolution of Samuel within the past 5 months...

Starting with outlooks..

Me with See Yueh then...

Me and my new hairstyle then and my ever 1st long sleeve shirt i bought for myself...

Me after See Yueh left me... My new colored hair!!!!

New haircut... ^^

Acting cute =.= hahaha... Still working at Casio...

Me and My new NoseBand Craze... Hahaha... New hairstyle... had fun trying...

Looking a little Visual Kei here... With the J Rock hair and such... =)

My new long sleeve shirt^^

Recently trying out a new hairstyle... Toro's kinda side spikes ^^ Casual Styling

Me, a few days back with my new hairstyle and outfit... =)

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Now... about my attitude in life... The "inlooks"

Hahaha... After See Yueh left me... Or rather left me due to appearance reasons... =.=

I was devastated... I hurt myself... I hurt others... She left me alone stranded... and enjoyed life herself...

Those were my thoughts then...

Slowly... Slowly... I grew to change... Spending the past 5 months... Trying to love myself more...

Well attitude wise... I'm becoming very optimistic... Somehow... I think for my future... I want the best for my wife... So I have to be the best (^^,) V

I'm taking things slow now... In an open-minded way ^^

So for "inlooks" wise... i pass hahaha... so YAY!!! im free to love once again!!! =D

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Recently... A girl at Cafe Cartel has caught my eyes... Somehow...
She's so sweet... So cheerful... Just like Rika...
Well... I'm actually quite happy just staring and taking quick glances at her... Her smile too in fact...

But then... I kinda confessed my feelings... in an indirect way... I'm not sure how she takes it...

I cant promise I'll be the best guy ever for her... But I can promise I will be the guy who would give all his best for her...

Seeing her talk to other guys and such... Some ppl asked me... Dun u feel like whacking that guy? Aren't you jealous... Well... I don't see it that way... Even if she is my gf... She has her freedom rights...

These rights were given to See Yueh too... She misused it... and ran away... went MIA...

I don't hope to rush into things... But i really do hope that she would give me a chance thats all =)

I just hope she notices my existance... Not wif the teasing by my fellow colleagues... Its not helping T.T

If im a good person... She can see it with her own eyes i suppose =) And if she doesn't notice it... Theres nth I can do but to have patience til she realises...

There's so much I want to do... So much that I can see the future slowly...

Like my Da jie Tracy told me... Samsam, you make a very good husband but not a very good bf but still good... If that girl can't see it... Its their Pa Sar ("Problem")... I'm sure that one will come by and know that its fortunate to have you around...

Stesha Sis oso told me.. Maybe its one in a million girls would love you back the way you love her... One in a million... thats alot...

Well... I'm not actually asking for stead yet or anything T.T I just want to be her best friend and know her better... ^^

Well... I can finally admit I've grown in my thinking somehow... But yea... I'm waiting for a chance as usual... To prove that I'm sincere and true... =)

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find You and I collide

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Tuesday, December 25, 2007