Friday, August 3, 2007

Sacrificial Items and objects...

Sometimes, I think about many things for a long time and finally it all makes sense... Some ppl are selfish enuff and too self-centered to sacrifice others and their feelings...

Case 1: Excuses and Reasons

Well many a time, people give excuses to make it seem reason enuff to decieve themselves to feel better, most of the times it is not reasons that they have but excuses they make so that things could go easier on them...

Case 2: Me,Myself and I

"I want to this becos I want to feel better", "I want to do that becos I want to focus more on other things", "I want to do these becos I want to benefit all of us", the word that appears the most would be "I", and all of these are basically excuses to comfort themselves.

Case 3: Replacing Emotional pain with Physical Pain

Ok, cutting yourself, hurting yourself, hitting yourself, are Physical pains, basically done by many people to over power their emotional pains so that they can focus more on the physical pain, Don't ya think so?

Case 4: Opportunities and Responsibilities

Hmm... In many types of relationship, be it BGR, family or friends, it always take both hands to clap, if one side doesn't give the other party an opportunity just based on one's selfish thoughts and excuses that seem reason enuff to themselves, nothing will work out
Responsibilties are what everyone has, creating a mess and leaving the other party to clean up all the shit left behind, its just very irresponsible and causes the other party to most probably be left confused and frustrated...

Case 5: Forgiveness

Forgiveness is not given as an when the person asking for forgiveness wants it, it takes time and for the person asking for forgiveness to prove it, through actions, not words, which is totally meaningless, Action with Words is nothing, Action with Faith is something, mind you, words are not excuses =)

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Alrite back to topic, feeling down lately, due to some person's selfish and self-centered intentions, leaving me to clear up the mess again, I'm always the "Shit Cleaner".... Dunno why oso....

A family who truly cares and not for show, is what im searching for, basically, for example, my friends and family who visited me during my work, esp when I was at the cream puff shop and handphone shop and Casio shop, I noticed one thing, not a single member of the Spiritual Family is there, Busy? Well isn't everyone busy, but they stil make time, No matter how busy I am, I'll make an effort to go down to visit my friends no matter what they do, e.g. Jason when he started work at Tangs, YongShan when he worked at Fin, so on and so forth...

I guess its time to be direct and I'm speaking from my heart, the spiritual family, has been just there for show, excluding the leaders, when they care for one another, they only truly care for some of their fellow family members, closer to them, and for the rest, its just show, hypocrites I say, they say they care for everyone, but in reality, its caring more about themselves, they only open up to one another and speak to each other selectively, thus in the process hurting others, namely ME, I don't really care already, since going to church is for God not for others which now I feel are not worth my care and effort...

Hui Mun: Althou the family is not always loving ( Hell Yea ^^)

Yi Long: Someone in the family backstabbed me (Woah...)

Sadly to say, stop putting up those acts, Screw You all, Suckers _|_




CRUCIFIED at 12:31 AM