Sunday, August 19, 2007

Flying without Wings

Today at work was great...
Candy( My Supervisor) was super funny la... She wanted to punish me for not bringing the Casio poster outside near the escalator but instead she punished You Rong lol...
She took some tape, you know those type of super strong and sticky kind and stick it on his hairy hand, BRIZILLIAN WAX TIME!!!! XD

Then it was my turn but heck i was having cold sweat... Hahaha... so the tape didn't work much on me, juz a dozen hairs got ripped off so didnt matter =p, You Rong had like hundreds of hair ripped off la, haha but amazingly, he screamed like a girl XD

I'm deciding to start my 40 days of fasting tmr... Somehow I feel so empty inside...
not the stomach but my heart... Its that I feel that the spiritual family can't be trusted that much... I just feel so empty, til I have reached my limits... I keep remembering my Great Grandma, My Dad and Eugene... all have left the face of this earth... Every Night... I keep thinking abt them, and those who I care and love so much... Althou they hurt me everytime... Til near DayBreak, then will I sleep, why have I reached the extent of crying myself to sleep once again? I hate that feeling... Am I too gentle? Am I too kind? Am I so different? I do admit I'm unique and often taken for granted... Sometimes hurting others would mean pleasure to me...

Starting tmr... Fasting and praying during breaks... I wanna experience a new found happiness, not new found jealousy, I want God to be able to tell me something, to fill me up... Thats what im hoping for now... Eventhou everyone dont give me a second chance... God will give me... and I'm waiting for that day...




CRUCIFIED at 4:39 AM