Monday, July 30, 2007

Shit Happens...

Haha these past few weeks has been an eye opener for me XD

Starting work one 1st August so won't be attending service for a long long long long long long time hahahaha....

Anyone interested in getting a Casio watch, buy it from me, it benefits you AND me XD, u buy from me at a discount and I earn the commission... Killing 2 birds with one watch o.O

Its been a very confusing and stressful week for the past week, many things happened and nothing was explained clearly XD, so its confusing =/

Visited my Dad last friday, his picture was very nicely done, spent an hour + talking to him, or his picture that is XD, talking about how im doing now, how the family is doing, about a special someone (who shattered me totally), about the future...

There are so many things I planned to do, so many things I wanna do, so many things I have to do, but somehow, things always don't go as I planned haha, so I don't get to do them =/

Burned a whole toilet roll with all my thoughts and feelings on it, every piece of paper...

Yesterday, me, Jimmy and See Yueh went to celebrate well... See Yueh's bday XD, gave her a wallet as a present, a wallet I have been keeping for a long time... Had a family feast at KFC, then giant Earthquake icecream at Swensens...

Sis Emily called me up, its been a long time since I last seen her, or even talked to her, like say... 3 years, she asked how I was doing and why I was not in St Theresa's church, well somehow... God spoke to this great friend of mine who was with me since K2 in St Theresa's church, God told her I had troubles... Troubles of the heart... I spent time...a Long time talking to her, I missed that feeling, that feeling of the last days I spent in St Theresa, everyone just seemed to interact with each other althou in the past we rarely even talked to each other, we chat, played, teased each other like we known each other for eternity...

Yesterday after the celebrations... I felt really heavy, not my weight la, but my heart and spirit, I opened a bottle of martell I took from home, one of my dad's collection, I drank 3/4 of the bottle, and Wow!... The feeling was great, first time in my life I was drunk, since I already built an immunity against getting drunk althou how much I drink haha.... Well it was a Greater Feeling later when I was fully drunk, The feeling.... There was none, I got knocked out for the night... I kept thinking about those who left me, those who left this world, My Great Grandma, my good bro from St Theresa, Eugene, My dad, these 3 to be named...

My Great Grandma, I respect and honour this lady, she lead a very tough life, raising my Grandma and her siblings, but what she got in her old age was her kids fighting over her inheritance...

My good brother Eugene, one of my good buddies in Sunday School, always hanged out every sunday for the whole day, escaping our parents and playing in church, played the church bells and hide and seek from our parents, those were the days... But God took him home, when I was in Pri 4, He drowned at his house's swimming pool after a full stomach of Roti Prata... Morale of the story, Roti Prata b4 swimming kills.... But, I really missed that bro alot...

My dad, althou his 46k SGD worth of shares are gone, not a single cent left for me after he died, I still forgave him, I don't despise him for what he has done...

My auntie Evelyn, she gave me 50 Dollars to start my work, I'm very touched she blessed me with money the time when I needed it the most... I remembered when I was a kid, she and my uncle were still dating, once she got me a shirt for my bday, I didnt like it and returned to her, she cried the whole night, she seems like those ppl who will Ji Chou matters and but today, she surprised me, althou it was a small 50$ blessing, what I thought was she shouldn't do this for me since im not very close to her, come to think of it, getting 5$ outta my mum is so hard now, let alone 50$ from my auntie...

Well, working at Isetan Scotts, Woo ^^, not Jurong Point le... Can meet my good buddy Jason le hahaha...

Recently, thinking of taking up smoking to pass my time...
Maybe I should =)

Well, who knows (^^,)




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