Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Where's Daddy?

Well its 4.45 am now, looks like the next few days will be crazy, I feel lost, I didn't get the chance to tell my Dad " I FORGIVE YOU" for all those things he had done in the past to hurt me and my family, well he's gone now, woke up from a call from my uncle at 3.30 am, apparently he died of heart attack ( that's what I heard from his friend whom I called), I didn't gif him the chance to be a good dad, or for me to be a good son

When my mum and sis started crying, all i felt was.... Nothing.... Juz a little lost =/

I'm confused why do I not feel sad, or weep a single tear for him, do I really hate him that much? Right now, my mum, grandma and uncle are driving down to JB to pick up his body

"I Forgive You" These 3 words are very hard to say, esp from me to my dad, for not being there for me all these while, but I know these 3 words can change his life, and I keep praying someday I tell him and have him changed for the better, now I lost that chance, perhaps now I'll keep praying that God accepts him into his Kingdom

Reflecting upon his life, I will never ever want to be like him, I'll be a much better person than him, I promise, His life ended very very sadly,

1st: his son leaves him and does not contact him for 2 years,

2nd: his wife leaves him and asks for a divorce

3rd: the bank he owes debts to declares him bankrupt

4th: those women he used to " love" left him

5th: loneliness

He brought all these upon himself, and I pray that the ever-forgiving God embraces him and guide him =)

The last thing I can do for him, is pray...

CRUCIFIED at 1:31 PM

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Tuesday, May 15, 2007